it is so, so, so, so, so frustrating trying to emotionally process any type of negative feeling for me, or working myself out mentally when i hit a brick wall and am Done. i don't want people to coddle and baby me. i don't want people to fuss over me. i think i've hit a point currently where i just want to be told that "all right, that's fine" and then be allowed to split because i want to be alone. i can barely process my own emotions in a healthy way much less deal at the same time with being conscious of how i'm acting to anyone near me. i just want to be alone!! leave me alone!! i don't want to reassure you or need to explain how i'm feeling and why. i just want to be alone so that i can actually fucking recharge.
i overexerted myself socially this weekend. ヾ(•ω•`)o